on being an only child
being an only child is interesting. i think it gives me certain perceptions into the world of siblings that anyone with siblings cannot see because they are biased. only children are typically spoiled, at least thats the stereotype on them. i think i'm spoiled to some degree, but i definately don't alwayz get everything i want, but i do get certain things that other children don't, like having my own room and having my own computer. i enjoy it to some degree and yet i would give up all the privelidges that i have experienced in my life as an only child in order to have siblings. my backpack is far too heavy. i look forward to longer having to carry it around. Yes but back to being an only child...there is something about having siblings that develops a person in a way that friends cannot. It teaches you to share, to know how to live with other people, to be able to concentrate with noise around you. i cannot concentrate with noise. i can't sleep with the tv on. i can sometimes concentrate with music, but not alwayz. i can't concentrate if there are people talking around me, especially if i'm trying to read. it has to be all quiet if im going to read and if someonne interupts me, i get very upset lol. this is not a good thing lol. But it cannot be helped. maybe when i move in with other people when i dorm at college i'll get more used to it. i hope i get a roomate that is nice. if i got to covenant, hope with be my roomate. she is messy, but so am i. i am not as messy as her though haha. so yes. I hope that i get to do that. She would be nice and help me and not get mad at me for being messy and she would tell me when i was being selfish.

She wouldn't just let me be selfish and not tell me about it lol. She already does. she'll be like, you need to fix your attitude, or something like that lol. and then i listen and try to be better. its so funny how yoru frineds can tell you someting that your parents try to tell you all the time but you think your parents are being overbearing and mean but when your friends say it, you listen and actually do it. but its really funny to me. thats why its improtnat to make good friends becaue they have such an influence. influence is very powerful. especially if your a person like me who is very impressionable. I shouldn't be so impressionable. its not that everyone can have an effect on me, its just the people i trust. i trust too easily though. i need to work on that, and i am, its just like that i have a naturally trusting nature which is good in some ways, but it can also be bad. because then you trust the wrong people and you get hurt or you get yourself in trouble. so yeah. alwayz make good friends and be careful when you're trusting people because they have more influence than you realize.