so i can hitch a ride with you tonight...

I wish I could help you see a reality that, regardless of how your week goes, or how much you think, you never have to give into the compulsion to escape. I wish you could understand that there is so much more to life. But, you cannot see that. You can, but I am not the one who can make you.
Sometimes I feel so tired. I feel like a child, lost in the woods, with people looking at me and laughing. i feel like the people who should protect me push me away and join the laughers. Those moments are the hardest, even if no one else can feel the pain or the turmoil, i feel it. have you ever thought about the fact that every person you lay eyes on has a life just as involved as yours? that each person you pass, you smile at, you don't even notice, has just as many thoughts as you? That thought scares me. I feel like the world revolves around me, but it doesn't. I feel unhappy today. I'm so tired. I'm worn out, but it's not like it's just, exhaustion, not like mental exhuastion, but like physical. i always feel like i can sleep. even if I sleep for hours and hours, i can always sleep more. i want somebody to punch me in the face (and not leave a mark) and just knock me out. and then i wouldn't have to be awake, or take the time to fall asleep, or feel all of everything. smile like you mean it.